i am running out of steam

i try to think positive
tell myself one day it will happen
but its hard to believe

i picture myself
sitting
chatting
painting

i am starting to think i am crazy
everyone else does

i am not obsessed with celebrities
why do i feel this way?

its more than a need to connect

how do you convince a star
that you are not nutts
not a stalker
but just someone that has
some sort of unexplainable need
to be noticed by them
just to know i exist

i dont even understand it
how can i expect someone else to..

it gets very aggrivating sometimes
always having to defend myself to people

"you'll see".. i say
"i'll meet her one day"

crazy they say..
crazy is ok with me
if i can be crazy and spend just one
day with ro...
it would be well worth being crazy






xoxo