there is a connection... something more than celebrity and fan.. i wish i could explain it: scared

i am scared....

too many things to list

i dont like this feeling
the unknown..

its like there's a tornado in my brain..
too much noise..

if the wind would just stop,
i could write about it..
maybe feel better

maybe later
xoxo

an open letter to ro..

ro
u dont know me
yet i feel like i know you so well
there are so many things i want to tell you
u seem so easy to talk to
its your eyes
so honest
open

your eyes are an open door
to your soul
i can see
i sometimes wonder if others see what i see
if they feel the same connection
and yearn to tell u
to shake your hand
and say thank you
thank you for being you
for putting yourself out there
for the joy of others
putting yourself on the line
so that others can see
see who you are
and what you stand for

maybe others dont feel this way
could i be the only one?
i doubt it
but i doubt that they feel the same

when i look at you i see
a MOTHER so strong and stable
able to take care of and love unconditionally
a WIFE so beautiful able to open your heart
and let someone else in and never let her go
a DAUGHTER scared and unsure at times
needing the mother
that was taken away from you so early
a FRIEND so loyal and fun
a BUISNESS WOMAN so smart
an ARTIST so talented
and a WOMAN
all the above qualities and more
put into the shape of YOU

you are a role model
and make me proud to be all of the above
i await the day when i can tell you
all these things to your face
until then
an online blog
that you will probably never see
will do
xoxo
jill